Broken Smile

16 August 2004

".....look for the girl with the broken smile...
ask her if she wants to stay awhile...n she will...
be loved.....she will be loved...."_Maroon5

gotta love those lirics....

ever wanting to be in a place so badLy ...u can actually smell it?...
u know like..when u're on the way to the seaside...n u can already feel the wind
or on the way to get some yummy iceBlend.....n u're already tasting the cream?....
or when u're at that point u know he's about to say "i love u?"

yep...
i was on that craving mood recentLy....the settings was right...smiles n laughter where in the air..
i gazed in his eyes...as he gazed in mine....(okay..okay...u know me n my imagination rite?..hehe)
i was high on medication over the weekend n wasn't thinkin straight..so that maybe could've elp alot...(hahaahhh)...for the fact that i THOUGHT something more was about to happend...n then boom...(no ..nuthing got xploded...)..
the words just came out....n i could hear somethin shatter...(again me n my imagination....)...
my heart dear..my heart shattered!.....

the words were " i'm not ready for a relationship at this moment"......

don't get me wrong..i wasn't asking him or anything like that...no
not me.......
one good advice i got recently was to not push things n just RELAX...
n that was exactly what i did...(i think...) i relaxed...

in fact we were talking about him n this girl he's interested...(nope not me....)
n that was when those words came out.....

its funny u know....
i'm huge but noOne really sees me...
i'm here but noOne knows....

so...i reckon when i'm gone....
ahh crap!


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